Sheila’s Unedited Study Notes

Dictated 2/23/02

Transcribed 2/27/02

Veil: Veil over the mind is a lack of understanding. Kabbalah Study Lesson 6 page 3, bottom of the page.

            Concerning Rabbi Haim Vital’s Tree Of Life and his level of study. This is the reason for the abstract study of Kabbalah where we talk about letters and numbers in the ears and the nose and mouth of Adam Kadmon. We did many many messages on the Hebrew letter H that comes out of the ears of Adam Kadmon. The reason for this abstract study, the Lord told me today, is that it reveals the spiritual truth of our spiritual being and at the same time bypasses the conscious mind which would be resisting if the conscious mind could hear these spiritual principles applied to the human person. The conscious mind resists many of these spiritual truths, refuses to believe them, but when the conscious mind studies abstract Kabbalah and absorbs these principles, it is breaking down, because that is the truth and the Spirit of Truth is entering into their heart and their mind, therefore breaking down for the future the resistance of the conscious mind that would say, this cannot be true of me as a human being. So long as the person has already studied and absorbed this abstract teaching, it makes it that much easier for the truth when applied to the person to be accepted by the conscious mind of mortal man. This revelation was given to me on Saturday morning, Feb. 23^rd 2002 as I study from the Tree Of Life, Etz Chayyim, the textbook which is the foundation of our #531 series A Look At Kabbalah.

            In particular, reading the instruction on pages 186 thru 188 entitled four alefs from the letters Yod, Hey and Vav. We know that the sefirot are all one inside the other and Etz Chayyim teaches that when the light of the nose... well let me say it this way. The light which comes from the lower part (like the nose is lower than the ears) when the light emanates from the nose, it covers over the light from the ears and that which is inside (so it would be the light from the ears) is inside the light from the nose, that which is inside becomes the soul of that which is outside. The Lord is telling me that this is our foundation for spiritual or for multiple incarnations. Let’s say that Moses, that Michael (if that’s the correct term) the Lord hasn’t corrected me on that yet. The angel Michael incarnated as Moses and Michael became the soul of Moses. Then Moses incarnated as Elijah and Moses became the soul of Elijah. Then Elijah incarnated as Jesus and Elijah became the soul of Jesus. Now I wonder if that isn’t why Jesus cried out for Elijah when He was on the cross. He was saying, Elijah, Elijah, depart from me. He was saying to Elijah, His soul or His higher nature, depart from me so that this flesh body could die. Isn’t that interesting? From that same point of view, the Lord Jesus when His seed is grafted to us, Christ Jesus within us, becomes our soul. I have taught that the soul is the personality, but with this new teaching or Kabbalistic teaching, I would have to say the soul is the whole man, not only the personality, but the whole spiritual man. And Christ Jesus would be our soul. Therefore when David in the Psalms cried out, O my soul, be not cast down, he was actually talking to his spiritual man, which would have been Elijah. We would call him Christ Jesus today, which is the next generation. But David was actually saying, O my soul or my higher soul or my God given soul, my neshamah, which is Elijah, do not be cast down under the carnal mind because if you are cast down under the carnal mind, I am undone. I always thought that scripture meant that David was saying to his soul, don’t be discouraged or don’t feel bad. But in view of this teaching, I would have to say, David was saying to his soul, to his higher nature, to his Christ nature, do not be cast down under my carnal mind. I am in agreement with you, with Christ within me. I am not in agreement with my carnal mind. Do not come down under the authority of my carnal mind.

            The light of the Ayn Sof that entered into the empty space is the same light whether it comes out of the ears, the nose, the mouth or the eyes. This light becomes thicker as it descends. The light of the nose is thicker than the light that comes from the ears and the light that comes from the mouth is thicker than the light that comes from the nose, thicker or denser or more visible. So how can we say that the light is the same in the ears and the nose when that light is thicker in the nose? The answer is that what causes the variation in thickness or in density of the light is not the light, the nature of the light, but the distance that the light is located from its original source. The further the light is from its original source, the thicker or the denser it is. Therefore, the light is all the same light no matter where it flows from. It just becomes thicker as it moves further and further away from its original source, which is the inner most part of Adam Kadmon.

            I have found an explanation in Etz Chayyim concerning the seals that we find in the book of Revelation. I’m looking at the book of Revelation right now, Chapter 5 verse 4: And I wept much because no man was found worthy to open and to read the book, neither to look thereon. I find the explanation of this scripture in our textbook from message #531 Etz Chayyim on page 192. This is the explanation. We’re told that Binah is the seal. One of Binah’s names is the higher mother. Malkhut is the lower mother and Binah is also the seal. There are seal openings. First of all, let me say this. Binah is called the seal because her Yesod is the place from which all the patterns are formed and sealed. I believe the Lord told me that this means Binah’s Yesod is where the nature and the pattern for the Godly mind and personality of humanity originated. It’s talking about spiritual geneticism, spiritual genes. The patterns or the genetic code for the spiritual man in God that will have eternal life is found in Binah’s Yesod. Remember that Binah is the mother that is bringing forth Ze’ir Anpin and Ze’ir Anpin and Nukva are bringing forth humanity in this World of Action.

            Now we’ve already been told by Rabbi Bar Tzadok in some of his writings that there is something called five gevurot and also five chasadim. Rabbi Bar Tzadok has told us that Ze’ir Anpin gives these gifts, the five gevurot and the five chasadim to Nukva when he marries her. I surmised up until now that the gevurot, which sounds like Gevurah, have something to do with five elements of judgment and the chasadim have something to do with five elements of mercy. But here we see the whole explanation that these gevurot are called strengths. They’re called five strengths and they are given to Nukva when she marries Ze’ir Anpin, which is her ability to pass on the mind of Christ. I remind you that Ze’ir Anpin is Christ Jesus and Nukva represents the human personality or more specifically, Abel, operating through the human personality. The Doctrine of Christ teaches that first there is a marriage between Christ Jesus and the personality and then Christ Jesus marries the Lord Jesus to fully save that personality. So what we’re being told here is that the union between Christ Jesus and the personality is the first stage of marriage. The personality that Christ Jesus marries is given gifts, five gevurot, which are the strengths to impart the nature of Christ to other people. She’s also given five chasadim, five mercies, because as we all in this ministry know, imparting the nature of Christ can be a brutal experience because imparting the nature of Christ requires the destruction of the carnal mind, and the exposure and the destruction of the carnal mind, which as we have all experienced, can be very painful.

            Rabbi Haim Vital in the Tree Of Life, tells us that these five gevurot are actually five of the Hebrew letters and they are also called the seal openings, which are 5 aspects of the mouth, throat, the palate, the tongue, the teeth and the lips. Now remember, the seal is our spiritual genetic heritage, which is in Binah, and that spiritual genetic heritage has to be activated. We’re also told here in The Tree Of Life that another translation of the Hebrew word translated open is to engrave. So the meaning of this verse in the book of Revelation is, who can take these seals, which is the genetic heritage of the higher mother, Binah, and engrave them on the people of humanity. Opening the seals means to engrave with the seals. The opening of the seals is the opening of the mouth that speaks the words that engrave the nature of God upon humanity. These five gevurot come out of Malkhut. The scripture ordains that this engraving of the nature of God on fallen man will come as a result of words that are spoken, which are generated by the Spirit of Christ, from a human being. This is the principle that as the five gevurot are transmitted from one human being who is married to Christ Jesus to another human being, out of those five gevurot, all of the twenty two letters of the Hebrew alphabet emerge. It is these twenty two letters that produce the full man, Christ Jesus within us, which will ultimately bring us to full salvation and eternal life. We are talking about creation. We’re talking about active creation, brethren. Creation is still going on and it’s going on in the midst of human beings.

            Now you may recall that we learned in the #531 series that the roots of Rachel and Leah come out of Binah. But at the time that I taught those lessons, I really did not understand what the function of Rachel and Leah are. Now I’m told that Rachel and Leah ultimately are partzufim that emerge out of Malkhut. Rachel and Leah represent the speech and the voice. The five passages of the mouth are called field openings. That is the throat, the palate, the tongue, the teeth and the lips are called field openings through which Rachel and Leah speak anointed words that transmit these gevurot, these strengths, to engrave the nature of God upon human beings. We are also told on page 193 that Binah is the mouth proclaiming great things which scripture comes out of Daniel 7:8 and 20. The church takes this scripture, a mouth proclaiming great things and imputes these great things to a spirit of pride, which is arising out of the anti-christ. But the Lord told us all the way back when we preached Message #71 that the little horn that speaks these great things is not the anti-christ, but is Christ, and that the great things that He is speaking are the promises of what we are to become, the kind of beings, the high level of humanity that we are to become in Christ Jesus and here is our witness coming from Rabbi Haim Vital in his book, The Tree Of Life, which is a second witness to what the Lord told me years and years ago that the little horn is Christ, not anti-christ.

            These gevurot, these strengths to engrave the nature of Christ on human beings are concealed in the sound of the voice and in speech. This is a witness to you of what I’ve been telling you all for years, that without any warning Christ Jesus can rise up and speak through my mouth and it is up to the disciple to recognize that it is no longer me speaking, but that Christ Jesus has risen up and is speaking through me. Our text book, The Tree Of Life says, that these gevurot are left hidden within the face [the Doctrine of Christ would say “personality”] and that the Lord can bring them forth whenever He chooses. When the Lord is not speaking, when it’s the human being speaking, as far as the Lord is concerned, that person is dumb silent. That means that any words that we say that do not come out of Christ or the wisdom of Christ, as far as the Lord is concerned, you’re not even speaking. From past teachings I can tell you that the Lord calls whatever you have to say that comes out of your carnal mind, noise, which means that it is worthless as far as spiritual pursuits are concerned.

            Now remember, the Hebrew letters, when we read about the Hebrew letters, we’re talking about the ongoing work of creation. The work of creation is to bring forth humanity in the image of God and immortal man.

            Now we’re told in The Tree Of Life that Binah is the seal and she is the secret of the seal openings. Now the seal openings are the throat, the palate, the tongue, the teeth and the lips. Basically, what is being said here, is that all of these aspects of the mouth are filled with the gevurot, which have the ability to engrave the nature of God onto a human being. The New Testament scripture that I relate this to, is that we’re told that men are saved by the foolishness of preaching. The preaching seems to be foolish to carnal men, but it is through the voice and speech that the nature of God is imparted and this is a spiritual manifestation that only takes place when the person speaking or preaching the scripture has in their possession the five gevurot. So this is another way of saying, according to the Doctrine of Christ, that you can only receive the nature of God through preaching, when the preacher has the Spirit of Christ, when the preacher has the Spirit of Christ as opposed to the Holy Spirit. When that individual is married to Christ Jesus. If Christ Jesus has not married your personality yet, you have the Holy Spirit, which is the female aspect. You may recall from the messages on The World Of Points that when the female aspect goes forth to engrave a nature, she lacks the male gland. She does not have the holy genetic heritage, so therefore the job of the Holy Spirit is to direct us to Christ. What does that mean? The job of the Holy Spirit is to bring us to a place where Christ Jesus will marry us and when He marries us, He gives us these gevurot, these five strengths, which are the ability to have the full twenty two letters, which are the power to fully form us in the image of God within our own being, and to impart then impart the gevurot to others.

            Jesus said, a sower went forth to sow seed. We have known that that seed is the seed of Christ, but we are given more information on page 201 of Etz Chayyim, where we’re told that Abba gives Imma a drop and that that drop contains both substance and form. This drop of Abba joins with Imma’s drop. We learned in another place (I think the red drop is Imma and the white drop is Abba) but I may have it backwards. Those two drops together form the seed. That’s just another way of saying zygote, which this ministry was teaching thirteen years ago, talking about Adam, the zygote of God. We’re also told on page 201 of Etz Chayyim that this seed, when it is sown, is the lowest level of the heavenly constellation. So when the seed of Christ is sown in a man, that man receives the nefesh level of soul of the heavenly constellation, the beginning of the new or the holy Jerusalem that is descending from heaven. We’re also told that this seed, which is the nefesh level of the soul of God, has the power to shape the material substance of the body and to make it into a reception room. Now I don’t think that this is talking about the physical body. I think it’s talking about the etheric body. The sentence is, “this seed or this nefesh has the power to shape the material substance of the body and make the limbs which are a reception room for the lower soul.” So I believe that these limbs are the etheric body. What’s interesting to me is that I have had several dreams over the years about a reception room and I was always the receptionist in the reception room. I thought these dreams were just telling me that I was really much smaller than I might think that I was, that all that I am is a receptionist which sits at the gateway, you might say, to the kingdom of God, for those people who are interested in pursuing it. But now I see from Etz Chayyim, that everyone that has the seed of Christ is a reception room for the whole heavenly man, the holy city, the whole spiritual man, Christ Jesus. We are the reception room, which He will enter into ultimately, hopefully, in His fullness. So we see that our limbs or our etheric body or perhaps our physical body (I’m not really sure) are a reception room, both for the Lord. Our limbs are a reception room or a point of mediation where people in this world who are looking for God, can come. Human beings, if they can recognize Christ in us, can come to us and we are the reception room through which, if the Lord grants them permission to enter in, they can enter in and view at least the nefesh, the lowest level of the heavenly kingdom. I have read that Judaism does not believe in a Mediator, but here is the Kabbalistic foundation for a Mediator right in the teachings of the most highly respected Kabbalist of today.

            I did have a dream several years ago while i was in Nigeria about a spiritual man. For some reason this man came up as Charlie H. He was coming to the reception room and he was granted permission to go in. He went in and he looked around at all of the riches that were on the other side of the reception room. I do believe that that dream was fulfilled by J. I forget her last name. At least that was what I perceive the Lord is telling me. J had been associated with Charlie H’s church. So as of now, my revelation is that J was the fulfillment of that dream. She was the spiritual man that came into the reception room which I and the ministry that I have charge over am, and she looked around. She saw the Doctrine of Christ and she saw what was going on here and that was the end of the dream, that she just looked around. We know that in this natural life she looked around and she left. I think she left because she didn’t fully understand what she saw. Praise the Lord.

            On Page 203 of Etz Chayyim, we are told that Ze’ir Anpin and Nukva are called the body because they are the lower seven sefirot of the World of Emanation. So if we are told that we are the body of Christ of the true church [not the carnal church but the spiritual church which is the body of Christ], that means to be a member of the body of Christ, we must have Ze’ir Anpin and Nukva manifesting in us, and this is the two lower levels of the heavenly constellation. Nukva is BaN 52 and Ze’ir Anpin is MaH 45. So according to this teaching, to be a member of the body of Christ, you have to have more than this seed of Christ. The seed of Christ is just Malkhut or just Nukva. So in order to be a member of the body of Christ, you have to have the full Christ Jesus married to Abel within the personality manifesting in you. Of course, as I have always taught, the body of Christ is spiritual and to be a functioning member of the body of Christ, you must be spiritual and you must be functioning spiritually on the spiritual planes of the heavenly constellation. So it makes sense to say that you’re not truly a member of the body of Christ until Christ Jesus, which is Ze’ir Anpin, is fully functioning in you. Of course for him to be fully functioning in you, he must be married to Nukva, which is Abel in you, which is your personality, the positive side of your personality.

            Page 204 of Etz Chayyim says that the crown on the head of Ze’ir Anpin is the extra soul of Abba and Imma. We’re told in a footnote that the extra soul is the added infusion given only on the Sabbath which returns to its source during the week days. This is talking about the marriage of Ze’ir Anpin to Nukva. The spiritual sabbath is a spiritual outpouring which occurs when Ze’ir Anpin marries Nukva or when Christ Jesus marries the personality, which includes Abel. There is a special anointing that comes forth. Now according to Kabbalah, this marriage only lasts for a season and then Ze’ir Anpin and Nukva separate. The times of separation are called the week days. The times of union are called the sabbaths. But we know that because we now have a Savior in Christ Jesus, Christ Jesus marries our personality permanently and this infusion of extra power or extra soul or the mind of Christ, abides with us always because of our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. Christ Jesus is wearing many crowns in the back of the book of Revelation in Chapter 19:12. I’ve always said that that is not the Lord Jesus riding on the white horse with the many crowns, but that it is Christ Jesus, which is the body of Christ in the people of God. So here we have a witness to that, that Ze’ir Anpin, who is Christ Jesus, is the one who wears the many crowns. That image in the book of Revelation signifies the many members of the body of Christ, all crowned with the extra soul or the mind of Christ, of Abba and Imma, who are wisdom and understanding. Praise God. The white horse would be the human individuals or the personalities, the purified or the righteous personalities. The man on the horse is our spiritual Savior, Christ Jesus. The crowns signifying Abba and Imma, of course, is the Lord Jesus Christ, the glorified Jesus Christ. 

Mary [transcriber of these notes]: When I typed page 5 where it says gevurot are these five strengths, I had a flash image of David standing before Goliath with five stones.